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tokyo bluesy
03:14
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drained the bloodstains
woke up such a bore
oh won't you help me?
I can't get him off the floor
making breakfast
practicing the skills
of moving forward
while strange, mentally ill
i needed more than
just some time to kill
i needed someone
a proper lover i could fill
straight out the window
you will only find
that blue is precious
and you could love it in due time
i stopped trying
trying to find myself
i learned to think that
i guess there's always someone else
since he's so smart
find a weapon you would choose
i'm left with nothing
so now there's nothing left to lose
i took the beat of
the times i toss and turn
and keep a measure
of how a loss is my concern
it's cold in tokyo
morning's here again
i'm feeling bluesy
in an age of play pretend
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and i hate how you think about the summer,
"it's as good as it can get"
you aren't the things you did when you were younger,
consider giving it a rest
well tell me how i make you feel like shit
do I seem like a hypocrite?
is this something I should tell my shrink?
now and then i think
is this really how it has to be?
don't you feel lucky and not so sad that you've lost everything?
you should feel lucky and not so mad that i'm not answering
and what was that you said about december,
"it's the lowest point i know?"
i'll never understand just how you miss me
but there's nowhere that can go
i keep my eyes out for an open door
for lines i don't hear anymore
and i sulk in all your fallacies
well can i ask one thing,
why is it that you've come back for me?
don't you feel lucky and not so mad that i'm not answering?
you should feel lucky and not so sad that you've lost everything
don't i feel, i should feel lucky instead quite bad that you're not listening
should i feel, i should feel lucky but i'm alright with the worst happening
and autumn's come
things could have been better
but with my habit to blame
i will never feel the same
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3. |
haletant
04:23
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there's a factory running in my apartment bed
with all my supposed lovers i wish i'd never met
they say my life's a stage but this is so well-arranged
oh who can see what's only make believe?
and i spend my time trying to make them popular
in hopes that they turn out to be like her
and now my soul is my own hell
my mind's the bottom of a well in which i sink
abandoned the machine
and focus on how
you used to sleep
i watched you stand there
you used to rest
i spent the night there
now everyday
you pray for dreaming of me
you always thought of me
and i sit still while tides blow over
the coldest shoulder
my morning sickness repeats
buried in my sheets
till i'm gone
fine you win this
i can't help this
this is sadness satisfaction
now you're wasted
with your selfishness
you try to help me
cause i'm not healthy
and i hate myself again
heard fucking up is the latest trend
policy of whiskey is i'm always drawn
make me a deal you'll never promise
don't be so real, don't be so honest
i always knew the perfect girl for me
didn't care to see she was meant for
for being young but always mutable
so she's been done with being beautiful
now broken glass tramples under her feet
she walks with disbelief
and in my dreams im getting older
the light moves closer
its quite the pleasure to be in my own privacy
but im wrong
in time i'll find a friend to forget what i had back then
this won't last forever, no i won't be here for long
and you speak so damn offhand
too violent to understand
baby i'm not crazy it's just these drugs i'm on
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born without a broken taste
learned to feel it all today
careless never was enough
but it sure as hell shut me up
carry yourself so close to the edge
i try to figure you out but soon I forget
why you carry yourself too close to the edge
i try to figure you out but soon I forget why
fear of open arms at night
she's okay, I'm not alright
All in all it's clear to see
Heart to hearts don't sit with me
Who can say I'm losing my mind
Nothing left to pass the time
learning to lose the one you love
given the life that you gave up
learning to lose the one you love
given the life that you gave up
fear of clinging on too tight
fear of strangers in my sight
fear of open arms at night
she's okay, I'm not alright
not okay, not alright
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5. |
pabst loves
03:16
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forest fire's gone
no need for response
misunderstood your leave
you tried your best with me
seems I'm falling, falling away from you
past loves in my head
for the night drive
they know I'm upset
i'll make another scene alright
and know I'm not finished, out of spite
to keep falling, falling away from you
now, you're a soiled soul
you've had it all but your self-control
and I'm hurt by the liquid courage
i'm feeling this is a mid-life crisis
i never meant to work it out
cause no one's ever gonna help me out
i've been trying hard to help me out
no one's ever gonna hurt you now
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6. |
1997
03:33
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father reaching brighter light
surprise i can't believe I'm still alive
paralyzed in bed
i got the notion that you cared
i got the feeling you were never there
pretty's in my head
setting myself straight
i've got a well-known appetite
for staying up this late
and i can't say i'm doing alright
morning’s in, i’m still awake
holy ghost has honored my decay
drag me out this time
waited for new heaven-sends
now heaven's gate awaits my life again
i will feel divine
setting myself straight
i’ve got a well-known appetite
for staying up this late
and i can’t say i’m doing alright
setting myself straight
i've got a well-known appetite
i’m staying up this late
to see if i might die tonight
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7. |
detrimental body ache
07:37
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hit me with another blow
therapeutic comatose
lock me in the catacombs
underneath my parents home
what a fucking waste of space
hyperventilation breaks
make a plan to eat today
but plans don't always go my way
and that's the best that i can do
no more putting out for you
i'll die before i'm someone new
i'll sure as hell be happy to
well my friends never wanted facts
i told them that i made a pact
that one day i just won’t come back
and love them through the life i lack
now violence is dead
it’s in my head
and i’m in debt
when i deserve prominence for
the things i worked hard to be
the things i fought hard to see
the things i took extensively
to stray my mind in disbelief
be here for my dying sake
detrimental body ache
portraits of honest mistakes
breaking down while feels plays
blinds are closed inside the room
sentimental flag salute
heard above my parents’ roof
their child’s built a life for you
their child’s built a life for you
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